i really dont know what to do to make myself feel better.I can console others,knowing how they feel.asking them if a certain option is what they really want..but what about myself?the reluctance to things away,such as the past.have been stopping me from being a better person.just like how i lost the one led to how i lost another.by the same things,somehow.im unwilling to answer my own question.to make my own first step,my commitment.i somehow dont wish to forget,dont want to throw that part of my memories out of my heart.i only wished to keep everything into a box,seal it up and keep it deep in.but it failed.
whats with me now,really.i dont know what to do alr.what kind of shit is this.so for now.ill promise myself.
just.one.small.thing.
i wont ever "like" anyone anymore,not until im able to make her feel safe with me,able to give my trust to her.however.this recent stuff only reinforced one thing.i have to be able to unrelate that person with my past encounters.then only.ill make that move.
and if you ever read this,i wld like to tell you im sorry.it all happened cos.i once let someone go without saying anything,and i lost it.cried back then,hated it,swore not to let such a thing happen again.i really wished that it will not repeat again,and therefore i went overboard.it is MY problem.maybe,you wont understand how i felt then until you feel it.but hope you dont,all the best to you.if it ever happens,remember me.and laugh that someone did this stupid thing before you.
hope i can let go soon.even dreaming of ridiculous stuffs.all the best to me k?get a grip on myself.
be my sweetheart(: @ 11:38 PM
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Shenglong :D
16+ years old Date of Birth: 24June1992 Horoscope Sign: Cancer
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